Talking: Mom? What's the matter, baby? He did it again, he hit me He did what?... calm down I'm gone kill him Listen to me I'm gone kill him, I know I'm goin to Listen, get your stuff and come home I can't come home... I'm gone kill him... I'm gone do it I'm sittin contemplatin is it worth, should I take it Take that shot and change my life Get that glock and take his life Hospitals and bloody noses This would end all, I suppose that I could leave Knowin I can't leave So it's either him or me Cause he gone kill me if I stay, I know Gone kill me, he can't change, I know From the first time that he did it, Made a promise that he'd quit it, shh God, it's so much work Don't wanna end up in a hearse I guess I gotta do it first I guess I gotta do it first Chorus I can't go back now, back now I'm runnin Away from those cops, I hear them commin And if they catch me, I still aint sorry If that was wrong just Call me guilty Cause if you knew what he did to me I know I would get your sympathy So if they catch me, I still aint sorry Just lock me up and call me guilty I did it, pulled the trigger It wasn't so hard, go figure Before I did it, I said This was for all the blood I shed For all the women who go through this ish Can't think of what to do, this ish Done torn them up inside and out Whose still tryna get out He gone kill if you stay, I know I been through this, so yes, I know I know he promised that he'd quit it If you believed him girl, forget it shhh You know I'm right Don't wanna see him take a life And it will only just get worse That's why I had to do it first Chorus It's so much blood i grabbed my stuff But before I could leave, the cops busted in (You have the right to remain silent) No I have the right to stay alive Guess what?, I'd do it again He would have killed me before I killed him It would have been him up in this building It would have been him fakin tears but what's funny is I'm the one standin here Chorus