So withdrawn and feeling numb. Watching life come all undone. Growng fear, a human grace. A drowning mind in a dark embrace. I am down on my knees praying beyond belief. The silence deafens my ears and welds the shackels onto my fears. My life a disarray. And I fade away. Lost all faith. Lost all trust. A sordid mesh turning to dust. I am lost. I am so numb.